I guess I'll never be good enough.
They say that a father's most precious gift,
Is his daughter.
Clearly I'm not that one.
Clearly I'm the misfit.
Because I don't belong here.
You don't want me here.
So I'll go away.
And there I'll stay.

But until that day I can escape,
Escape and be free,
Leave me alone, just let me be. Give me a bottle,
to numb the pain,
only until I am free again.

I wanted so badly,
to make you proud,
but it seems to me,
that I've let you and mom down.
I'm sorry for who I am,
what I've become.
Everything I've said,
and everything I've done.

Soon enough, I'll be out on my own.
Out of your life, and all alone.
with only me to worry about,
there is no one to disappoint.
No one to let down,
You can live your perfect life.
I'll just stand here alone.
You can life your perfect life.

You'll never know how many tears I've hidden from you,
Here alone on the dark.
How many times into my wrists,
I've carved my sadness and disappointment.
These scars are here as a reminder
that I'll never be good enough for you.


But until that day I can escape,
Escape and be free,
Leave me alone, just let me be. Give me a bottle,
to numb the pain,
only until I am free again.

Ghosts

Everyone has skeletons in their closet.
secrets the world shouldn't know.
Everyone has skeletons.
Including me.
But what I really want is for these ghosts
to stop haunting me.
You remind me of the good times
and the bad.
I hate you.
I want you to disappear.
leave me alone for good.
you hurt me.
to the point of no return,
and yet for some reason
I still wonder about you.
I won't give in and go back,
I have something so much better now.
but still,
everywhere I turn, there is a reminder of you.
I want to purge my life
of everything that brings back memories of us.
Happy or sad,
because you just bring me down.
I can't do this anymore.
Goodbye haunting memories.
you make me sick to my stomach
, and you can no longer control me.
Go burn in hell.