Realizations

Im at a point in time. well everyone is. But this point in time is difficult, confusing, and scary. I leave for college in about a week. I don't feel like I'm old enough for college. I still feel like a scared little freshman in high school going through her awkward phase. Well, I guess I will be a freshman, I will be scared, and I might still be going through that awkward phase, but still. Does leaving for college mean that the childhood funtimes are a thing of the past? Don't answer that. I dont want you to answer that. I have to figure that one out on my own. I guess that I'm just afraid of the unkown, which I guess is just human nature. But i WONT run away.If im going to make it thrugh this thing we call life, I have to face forward, with my chin held high. I might be afraid, but I will not show it. Its a good thing I'm fairly decent at hiding the way I feel.

The road goes ever on and on,
Down from the door where it began,
Now far away the road has gone,
And I must follow,
If I can.

Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet,
And whither then, I cannot say.

The Road, Lord of the Rings
Not sure which one.

I gotta just keep going on,
Face the monster,
It'll all be worth it in the end.

At least I hope it will be.

I'm leaving this in God's hands.He'll take me where I need to be.
From now on, I'm just a leaf, floating free.